"The Lord is my light and my salvation - so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?" - Psalm 27:1
Friends, I'm not over what happened yesterday. I have to be honest here. While this natural disaster was mild in comparison to what others have experienced over the years - Katrina, tsunamis, tornadoes - I have to imagine that the same thoughts and fears that people experienced through those events are similar to what was running through my head yesterday while my office building was shaking. For most, it seems, it is back to business as usual today. For me, I don't easily forget things like this.
Here is how yesterday's earthquake affected my weight loss journey:
1. Joel and I stopped at McDonald's to get something to eat and drink while we were sitting in traffic. This might be the first time I've ever entered a McDonald's and the only thing I ordered was a bottle of water. For those who are following the Beck book, this is me giving myself credit!
2. I pretty much sat in a trance all night long, trying to digest the events from earlier that day. Hunger finally started rearing it's head around 7 PM. I didn't want to make anything. I didn't even want to eat, but I couldn't get past the growling in my stomach. I made myself a remake of a Chipotle burrito bowl. It did nothing for me other than take away the hunger.
3. I had a gym visit planned for yesterday and I could not muster the energy to go. See #2 - I was busy sitting in a trance people - no time for gym visits! Not only was I busy staring off into space, but I had a splitting headache that began about the time I stepped foot in our front door and continued all the way until bed time.
4. I didn't read the second round of the Advantages Response Cards, and I didn't read Week 2 Day 2 of Beck either.
I'm not at all upset with myself for not doing what I should be doing or planned to be doing in the least. Sometimes there are just more important things that worrying about weight loss.
You're right, some things are more important, but worrying isn't one of them, nor does it achieve anything. It's wasted energy. Yes, it was scary, but it's behind you. Look forward, count your blessings, and show your gratitude to the Lord that you are safe by taking care of you. Worry isn't good for you - its hard on your nervous system, it ages you and harms your health, and it distracts you from life. Get a good night's sleep and get back on your plan. You can do it!
ReplyDeleteGood job not eating the kitchen sink. In stressful situations that is usually what happens
ReplyDeleteI had quite a traumatic experience about a year ago, and I found that it took me 3 full days to stop being overwhelmed by it, and about another week more to fully get past it to where it didn't bother me that much...
ReplyDeleteI found talking about it right off that bat, what I was feeling, sharing my thoughts/fears/etc., really helped me get over it.
Once I was able to talk about those things right away, then when the same feelings/thoughts came up again, I knew how to continue to process them, it was like I didn't have to keep focusing on them, because even though they were there, I had been able to express those thoughts already and come to healthy conclusions, out loud :)...
Great feelings are on the horizon!
Sending good vibes your way! :)
RY
I am from Alabama, and after our Spring Tornadoes I found myself sitting trancelike often. When I would get off work, I would skip the gym because I just wanted to be at home close to my husband and pup. I definitely took me several weeks to shake it off. Be good to yourself..and gentle.
ReplyDeleteI'm in Utah this week... And no quakes here, but I can't even imagine how I would feel going through that. Hng in there, dear. Enjoying your blog very much. :)
ReplyDeleteHope you're bracing yourself for hurricane irene then!
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